Body dysmorphia disorder,
a day to day struggle I have is fighting this. I don't always know how to deal with it and I let it take over my life, but there are other times where I can fight it and not let it get the best of me. Some days I just want to stay in my room and not let anyone see or talk to me, and these are the days I feel my worst. Sometimes I feel too embarrassed by how I look and feel that it leads me to pushing people away. Other days I can fight the urge of letting this take over me, and I can go about my day being completely okay.
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One pop culture phenomenon that has been remediated in multiple ways is The Walking Dead. This show on AMC first began as a comic, then was later turned into a well known popular tv show. Since remediating it into a tv show it has later been turned into action figures, conventions, simulations, video/board games, costumes, merch, and now is being turned into a movie. I believe this holds such a fascination with people because it offers such a wide range of diversity for people to relate to. It has everything you would want in a show, and has a little bit of every genre going from romance, gore, comedic jokes, sci-fi, and more.
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Going into this paper I had no sense of direction on what route I wanted to take. After long hours and many nights thinking about what I could write about I came to the realization nothing exciting has happened in my life. So, what is even worth writing about when nothing spectacular or interesting has happened to me this year. I had something in mind, but I kept trying to avoid it because I didn’t think I was ready to talk about it with anyone let alone a class full of people. My mental health is never something I took seriously because talking about my own feelings has always been a struggle for me which leads me to always putting my feelings aside and taking on other peoples. These past few months have easily been the worst but also best times of my life. The beginning of November I developed an eating disorder and became mildlydepressed, but I didn’t think much of it and shoved it to the side. Throughout the next few weeks I had spent my days feeling lost, confused, impulsive, and just kind of alone. If anyone knowsthe feeling of being lost and confused, then you know it’s not really an ideal way to feel becauseit also leads to you feeling unmotivated with daily activities. Everyday never felt normal, I would just sit around and wait for time to pass by so I could go to sleep and have a few hours of peace. Iwould constantly complain to myself that the way I am feeling wasn’t right, but I would continueon with my life as if nothing was actually wrong. At this point I didn’t really know what the problem was, but I knew something was wrong so when I went home for winter break, I explained to my family how I felt. They didn’t really think anything of the bad eating habits or the unhappy emotions I was feelings because they assumed it was just stress from school and that it would get better being home for a while. Spending time back home in Texas may have helped a little temporarily but soon enough I was back to the same hopeless feeling. Knowing that my family couldn’t help was a bummer, but thismade me realize the only person who can really help me is myself. Even though I knew I needed to help myself I still struggled to start that journey to get back on my feet. There was a night I kind of sat there and took time to myself to think where exactly did I go wrong for me to develop this disorder and what did I do to feel so helpless. I kept thinking I could sit here and keep asking these questions about what I did wrong or how I messed up but I knew it wouldn’t fix the problem, so I finally decided to make a change. Coming to terms with this disorder was the first step to getting better and asking for help was another. I kept thinking about the things I used to do that I had stopped in the past few months and decided to pick those back up again. For the past few weeks I have been going to the gym, taking walks, and just keeping myself occupied instead of sleeping the days away. There was a period of time where I thought I would never get better and that nothing was going to change but bringing back the things I used to do and keeping myself busy has helped tremendously. In the beginning of this paper I said that this has also been one of the best times of my life and that is because I learned some valuable lessons which are that it’s okay to havesetbacks in life and that it is okay to ask for help and deal with your feelings head on. I realizedthat it’s okay to put myself first for once, and that was something I really needed during thistime. I know things aren’t completely perfect, but I know with time and more progress that I will feel okay again. New OP My first semester of college. I didn't know what it was, but I was feeling alone and impulsive with eating. I reached out for help but didn't find much from it so there was a night I thought to myself. I only really have myself and need to fix this problem. I brought back all my interest and knew id slowly get back on my feet again. The purpose of our paper was to bring attention to the affects and examples of how parental expectations impact people. The idea of writing this was to make people think about a topic that normally no one really thinks about because none of us have ever thought how our parents shape us as people. Recently there has been many college scandals because peoples parents want them to go to college and succeed and sometimes have an opportunity that they were not able to have. We go into depth about how high exceptions and even how low exceptions affect us as we are growing up. Another thing we include is parental expectations in pop culture and how these things correlate together.
Life. Life is pretty hectic these days. For my social work class we have to do 25 volunteer hours due by a certain time, and because things got in the way and also the fact that I am a huge procrastinator I am now rushing to get these hours done in time. Besides all that, volunteering has opened my eyes in so many ways. During the weekends I will go to The Mission which is a mens shelter and I will help prepare dinner for everyone. Although it is nice learning some new cooking skills it is even better and very heartwarming hearing these guys stories. I mostly help out this guy named Brandon because he's the head cook most days. I always ask him questions because his stories always seem so interesting and what I have learned is that he works and lives at the mission and when he is not here he spends his time traveling. He was born in California, spent some time in New York, and is now just hanging out in Flagstaff. After a few weeks of spending time with him in the kitchen I learned he also wants to become a baker, and with the circumstances he is in it might be a lot more work but he is willing to do it. Going into the assignment I was kind of nervous because I didnt think I would like it as much as I have been, and I was never expecting to develop friendships with a lot of the staff and other volunteers there. One thing I learned from this is not everyones reasons for being in the situation they are in are the same, and volunteering is something that I will continue to do even after this assignment is due. These people will forever have a mark on my heart in the best and most humbling way possible.
18 Things I have learned throughout my life so far.
1. Always be kind 2. It is okay to put yourself first sometimes 3. Make sure to always take pictures and to capture moments even the small ones 4. Don't forget to have time to yourself 5. Life is not a race, and some things will take time 6. Love yourself even on the hard days 7. Whenever you can always do something nice for someone else whether that be just opening the door for someone or asking how their day is going 8. Be a good role model for younger siblings 9. I look terrible in pink 10. There are people who actually love you so don't push them away 11. Don't always let your shyness get to you. Put yourself out there sometimes! 12. Don't be scared to try new things 13. Remember that your own feelings matter and are valid 14. Not everyone is going to like you but that doesn't mean you have to change who you are 15. Check up on others especially family members because you never know when they will be taken away from you 16. It is okay to feel stressed, sad, and unmotivated at times 17. Enjoy all the moments in life 18. Remember you are worthy, important, and loved. Me: Captain Marvel changed my entire life.
Adrianna Zuniga: My life is finally coming together. Kamryn Henley: I really just want some food. Corrinne N.: I am untalented and very tired. Anonymous boy: Being loved is the best feeling. Jeremy P: Can we just watch movies now? Anyssa B: What the heck is even happening? Jared: Because I can and want to. What the heck is even happening? I really just want some food and to just watch movies now. My life is finally coming together because being loved is the best feeling and captain marvel changed my entire life but I am still untalented and very tired. I will be analyzing the song "Needy" by Ariana Grande. One of the main appeals she uses is pathos which emphasizes on the emotion of wanting attention. The main ideal of the song is her craving someones emotional support and all around attention. When writing this song I believe the message she is trying to get across is that it is okay to need someone there for you and you should not feel bad for it. The targeted audience is people who feel needy so much and she is writing this song to let people know it is not a bad thing to be too needy. After listening to the song it was very clear and effective what the message was, there was never a moment where I was questioning what point she was trying to get across.
The New York Times article "March for Our Lives Highlights: Students Protesting Guns Say ""Enough is enough"" (https://www.nytimes.com/2018/03/24/us/march-for-our-lives.html) opens up about a movement relevant to our society today and how it is affecting students, families, and the community. Throughout the past few years there has seem to be an increase in school shootings which is scary for everyone because students don't feel safe going to school, and parents have to live in constant fear that there child is never going to come home. As a student and as a human being in general I stand by this movement and what it stands for. In the article it shows how many people teamed up all over the world to support this movement and bring it to light. Although I was not able to walk in my own state, my voice was still being heard by the people who were able to. There is a lot of controversy regarding gun laws and people have a lot of different opinions but the side I lean more towards is we need stricter gun laws which does not mean ban guns for good but to simply have more restrictions on getting them. This article not only showed people coming together but showed why exactly we need to do that in order for things to change.
Area 51. The site which is known for holding alien like beings and keeping UFOs in the building for experimental use. Is it real or is it not? Without doing any research what I already know about this area is that it is a highly classified place located in Nevada. Some people believe the area does not exist at all, but it is actually a U.S Air Force base used to practice flight testing. Some people believe there is more to this Air Force base and that is where the myth of the aliens come in. If we go back and look at history people believe that the roswell crash was connected to Area 51 according to Matt Blintz (popular mechanic,2017). Yes the sight known as Area 51 is real, but after doing research no one actually knows what goes on there because there is over a ton of conspiracies that go on there.
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